pinkygirlrox

everyone i think has a dual nature....you now, a kind of yin and yang....most of the time i think that they're a mix of the two halfs tho...idk....im not cut out to rant about philsophical stuff like this....*shrug*.....

on a different note...

this is so cute :)

i want to do something crazy next summer for a good cause....just a random thought i wanted to put out there

so i've been wanting to work as an EMT (Emergency Medical Technician) for a while now, and so I'v formulated a plan that hopefully will work out with everything

Fall '09:  Focus on school and work, make money to pay for EMT classes and ect, and focus on the grades
Spring '10:  Focus on school and EMT classes
Summer '10: Work on the EMT-I classes
Fall '10 and Spring '11: work on Paramedic

and then maybe spend some time working as a paramedic...or just and EMT-I...idk which ><...oh well...another mental battle for another day...

boys.....have to be the most infuriating...yet entertaining creatures on this planet...

...there are sometimes when some things he does drives me up the wall....but i just cant let go....cuz in the end its worth it...


...or maybe im just being stupid.....idk....

so yea....apparently im gonna be a marrow donor...like for sure....well, its getting closer....i have the physical exam this tuesday...lotsa flying....gonna miss david as he's leaving...>.>...but oh well, its not the end of the world...i just wont see him for like a few more days...not a big deal...but the whole donation thing still kinda freaks me out...

...so yea...starting to look into gyms...i really need to start going ><...anyone want to join me?

okay, so im not patient at all when im this close *makes pinch gesture* to getting what i want...you ask what i want?...i want to see him...what is he doing you ask, well, he is sleeping >.>...the waiting is KILLING me....its been like 8 days, and i have barely talked to him despite the fact that he had communication, which he wont have with his other, shorter trips....i am...impatient...especially since, lets see here, HE MISSED MY FREAKIN BIRTHDAY......*calms down*...to say the least, im antsy....AND HES ASLEEP.....>.>...maybe exercising while waiting will help....i can always call him if anything goes wrong.....laterz

*spins in chair* wheeeee....:D

randomness...

things are quiet with the boy gone but that doesnt mean im not having fun :)...had lunch and that was really fun this last tuesday and my project seems to be proceeding, with a few bumps, but that is to be expected i suppose...

i miss him even tho im not like 'omgz i cant do anything with him not here'....thats just a ridiculous mindset...but its just the little things i guess that i miss when i do see him...his laugh...the jokes he makes...talking to him about weird random stuff....i guess its just different from seeing him only a few times a week...i mean, a week is too long...>.>...

*sigh*

i have so much more to do this summer...>.>...and i dont want summer school to come >.<

oh, yea...and stargate is freakin awesome! :D

so apparently my marrow is a possible match for a someone in San Antonio with lukemia...yea...

...it scares me a little bit but then again I was the one that signed up for the registry anyways...i just never though that i would get called so soon...its just a little unexpected.....

....i hope i can help the girl....:/.....i get blood drawn eith tomorrow or tuesday and then when tests are complete, we'll see where things go with this...

crippling indecision is never fun...never ever fun...especially when you can't reach a decisive conclusion to whatever it is...

*sigh*

nursing vs. doctor

i want to hear the opinions...

its funny how your opinion of someone can change so quickly when your first impression of them is based soley on judgement....

WTF?


AQUA AND PAVORATTI!....inverted question mark?.....poor pavoratti looks like "wtf am i doing here?"....watch and see what i mean....


aqua =/= pavoratti

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BLAH.......i feel so discontent.....im like so over this 'resting' thing...im ready to do something...like get something accomplished that like actually means something but there is nothing at the moment...this sucks....i havent left the house barely in like 2 weeks...and it doesnt feel like christmas....does anyone else feel the same way?.......blarghies....




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its funny how the things that you want the most and mean the most to you, you have to wait....it sucks i guess but then i guess it wouldnt be worth it....yea...the poigniancy kinda goes away after 11 or so...oh wells....it sounded better in my head...but yea....overall, things are going well....i get to sleep...and then do whatever for the rest of the day and then go back to sleep...so its all cool....im ready for maine too...it'll be the change and indipendence im looking for but only for a short while :)

oh yea...and anyone who has any nightwish, good for you cuz they are awsome...i mean look at the video bellow...isnt it the most haunghtingly beautiful piece of music you've heard in a while?

The Islander -- Nighwish




An old man by a seashore
At the end of day
Gazes the horizon
With seawinds in his face
Tempest-tossed island
Seasons all the same
Anchorage unpainted
And a ship without a name

Sea without a shore for the banished one unheard
He lightens the beacon, light at the end of world
Showing the way lighting hope in their hearts
The ones on their travels homeward from afar

This is for long-forgotten
Light at the end of the world
Horizon crying
The tears he left behind long ago

The albatross is flying
Making him daydream
The time before he became
One of the world`s unseen
Princess in the tower
Children in the fields
Life gave him it all:
An island of the universe

Now his love`s a memory
A ghost in the fog
He sets the sails one last time
Saying farewell to the world
Anchor to the water
Seabed far below
Grass still in his feet
And a smile beneath his brow

This is for long-forgotten
Light at the end of the world
Horizon crying
The tears he left behind so long ago

i wanna travel this summer...without my parents....just driving around and stuff...that is after the smdep thing...you know....like travel upstate in the US, idk whether i would prefer going east or west, but I still want to go...who wants to and can come with? i wanna explore the US...see more than texas...i wanna go...rawr...

scarily enough, this guy has a point...

thanksgiving = quiet
time off = good
life = good in general
boyfriend = <3
family = meh
friends = :)
school = BORING


f%*&...i miss laura


hmm...having an ocassion to wear a goregouos dress and look drop dead goregous would be nice...idk why...just feel like it...

freakin spam botts are ruining the internet...stupid captchas

i really want to go to the beach...maybe just find somewhere away from people and sit and think...we were in corpus once and we walked out on the jettys and i just sat there for a while on the jettys thinking...it was very peaceful...maybe its the being in the presence of something so much bigger than you and uncontrollable that for some reason relaxes me....or maybe its the change of scenery....whatevs...

night

its amazing the difference one year can make...

why am i so impatient? why do I want so much more? is it human nature or individual stupidity i know i could do better but i don't want to....why is that?....is it because I need a break?....do i really need a break? or is it something that i just want, and feel that i'm entitled to...am i right to feel like i'm stuck?...or am i just being a bitch, or spoiled?...should i feel this way, or what?  am i wanting way more than i'm entitled too?  what am i entitled to in my current state of being?  do i deserve more or less? or am i just being stupid? *sigh*

why must my parents micromanage...why cant they leave well enough alone....i'm an adult now, or so they say, yet they still baby me because they 'worry,' yet it seems if i was anywhere else, they wouldn't....can anyone say double standard? they call me irresponsible, yet like i said, they still baby me...i mean, call me lazy, but why do your own laundry when it can be done for you?  and my grades...they dont need to know...like i said...i'm a big girl now....*sigh*



this is totally random but i didnt know that napoleon was a romantic...


As for me, to love you alone, to make you happy, to do nothing which would contradict your wishes, this is my destiny and the meaning of my life. -- Napoleon Bonaparte



yech....i need to get away...